Saturday, December 27, 2008

I had another dream!

I'm linking this on Facebook, so some names have been changed to... avoid personal embarrassment.

It started in my AP English class, but in my 11th grade english classroom.  We hear (and then go see) people stampeding towards something.  Things and stuff happen while the teacher (not Ms. T or Ms. W) try to keep us in our seats and under control.  Next thing I know I'm in Mr. J's car (shotgun) with some other band people I don't know very well.  We're going to a designated spot that the school sent everyone to; it was like a fire drill, only away from the school.  As we're driving, we notice things on the street.  There are pools of balloons and rocks and other weird and colorful things that crunched or popped when you ran them over.  It was apparent that someone had put them there on purpose.  We get to a place with tall office buildings and things like that, and are meant to just stand around and wait.  By then of course everyone has noticed that there's stuff everywhere!  There are banners spanning the buildings, blockish words that were made to look like they went through buildings, and just a whole lot of random, colorful mayhem!  It was the biggest, greatest senior prank ever.

But there's more to the dream.

While we're standing and waiting, I accidentally switch phones with someone, panic, and then find the person with my phone.  She was doing something with it that flipped the screen up.. 0.o  I didn't know it could do that, but I saw her doing it, so then I did, and yay.  (That was articulate.)  After I get my phone back I try to take pictures of everything that's going on, but I can't get it to work.  It wasn't broken, I was just being exceptionally clumsy.

Then I have to go to the bathroom.

Luckily we're near another high school, so I'm directed there to find the bathroom.  I have to walk through the music area to get to the bathroom, but I'm in a hurry so I don't really notice.  Afterward, I go to walk through the band room again and notice all this glorious marching stuff: navy blue hats and uniforms, white drums and those fake guns.  I just kind of walk over to them in awe.  Then someone actually fires a gun (like a stage shot with a flash and a bang but no actual bullet) and I notice there are two other people there: the girl with the gun and a guy cleaning some piece of equipment.  Slightly embarrassed at being caught, I continue trying to find my way back to the group.

*Here I find myself in the middle of a swim meet that the other school is having and I have to maneuver my way to the other side of the pool.  It's frustrating and full of irrelevant detail.*

Giving up trying to fight through the swim meet crowd, I go back to the marching band office.  It's a little bigger and longer than Mr. J's office, but it has the same set-up.  I'm surprised to see Chance with someone I didn't recognize, a 7th grader I vaguely recognized, and possibly Steve but I don't remember too well because then [Bob] walks in.  He talks to Chance and messes with the 7th grader, and then the others leave and we're the only ones there.  He then proceeds to curl up on the floor like he's about to fall asleep.  I don't really know what to do, so I decide to sit next to him and play with his hair.  He jerks awake in surprise and says, "If I woke up like this tomorrow and you kissed me good morning, I'd..." and I can't remember the words here, but my brain told me they meant 'be happy but really confused'.

And then one of these dream-skip things happen.

[Bob] and I walk into the other school's band practice room where their marching band is set up and ready to practice.  Mr. J is conducting.  [Bob] walks away into another room, I assume to get an instrument (and he's suddenly wearing this flowy-sleeved white pirate-esque shirt, btw.  Ooookay).  Unfortunately I can't find a snare or get to the snare section, so I sit next to a horn player.  The dream pretty much ends there, before [Bob] came back.

This was a ridiculously vivid dream.  I couldn't read what was on the buildings (even though I knew it was something like '09 forever'), but I could see faces.  Isn't supposed to be impossible to see faces in dreams?  After I half woke up I had to remind myself that it wasn't real, and if I acted like it was the next time I saw [Bob] it might not go so well.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Christmas: Taking Inventory

Things I got for Christmas, in order of when I see them around my room.
Little "OMG" pin
Itty bitty snowman snow globe ornament
2 little things of round post-its
The [mini] Rubber Penguin Kit (From the makers of the Mini Rubber Duck Kit)
Book light
Shakespearean Insults playing cards
Travel mp3 speakers
Plastic ipod case
Framed Japanese symbol for serenity
little bubble bath
little lotion
"Shopping Marathon" Aromatherapy set.
lip gloss case
vanilla sugar room smellerizer plug-in thing
white rubber duck
cute little stuffed reindeer
dove mug
red sparkly travel mug
$10 card
Argyle bag-------------------------,,,,
Argyle sweatshirt-------------------~~  <3
Argyle makeup bag---------------''''
The Last lecture audiobook
Mac lip gloss thing
Mac eyeliner thing (including blue and purple! :D)
Eats, Shoots & Leaves day calendar
Purple (cashmere!) sweater
Sims Castaways Wii game
$20 Hot Topic card
A total of $75 B&N credit

This list makes it look like a whole lot of stuff, and it probably sounds bratty of me to say otherwise, but it really isn't all that much.  Especially considering all the STUFF Hannah got.  My God it's ridiculous!  According to Mom, Hannah got so much STUFF because she told her to get it all.  Soooooo what you're saying is I have to tell you to get me things in order to earn equal gifts?  Ridiculous.
And of course, on top of all that, I got cramps.  I swear they started right at midnight, too, like they were waiting for Christmas to bring the pain.  The nap I took until 11 helped.
I'm complaining a lot, but overall it was a good Christmas.  One thing could erase all the bad stuff and make it perfect, but I haven't talked to him about it yet. <3

Time for hot chocolate!





"All I want for Christmas/is Yooooooooooooooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!"

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Finally, someone understands me! xD

These are the lyrics of Lauren Fairweather's newest song called Screening Process.  It's basically the story of my life.  It's scary accurate until a little bit at the end.

I always had trouble fitting in
Let's face it, I'm just strange
Even though I learned to keep things in
I never wanted to change

Before I knew it, I couldn't say
Half the things I thought about
They crossed my mind, then hid away
And never made their way out

If I have moments of insanity
The only one hearing them is me
In my head, it gets pretty lonely
I've been silenced by my own insecurity
I'm bothering everyone, nobody cares
No wonder I've been so depressed
I don't feel like I'm worth listening to
So I'm stuck with this screening process

I must've been beyond annoying
But you helped me, believe it or not
When you let me just keep talking
For that one day, I forgot

My whole life, I've faked a smile
Spewed some shit that doesn't matter
But the night you listened for a while
It was more than useless chatter

Something happens when you're by my side
Although I couldn't tell you why,
I couldn't hold back even if I tried
And I stopped keeping everything inside
I found the girl I thought I'd lost
You can figure out the rest
You made it easy for me to be myself
With you, I don't need that screening process

Days like that are hard to find
And it ended way too fast
So I play it, pause it, press rewind 
To try to make it last

I've held on tight to that memory
As I find myself just moping
Five months ago, you were done with me
Now you know why I'm still hoping

I thought that we made quite a match
For once I made someone's eggs hatch
No wonder I'm still so attached
I wish you hadn't let go of this catch
I'm back to screening everything
Just like I'd done before
And all I know's I need you
Whether we're just friends or more.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=362oFCsF7u4

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Freak Out!

It's finals week and he's busy, that's why he hasn't messaged me back like he said he would...  That's why, that must be why...  But I still feel lonely.  This sucks.

http://tinyurl.com/y9wbzh

Monday, December 08, 2008

I am not bored.

I am procrastinating, something I REALLY need to not be doing.  I have to finish a worksheet for chemistry right now.  If I don't get it done, I won't be able to do the lab tomorrow, and that would be really, really bad.  However, as you can see, I'm not doing it.

I'm hungry.  Why am I hungry?  Recently I've been eating like normal but within the hour I'll have a hungry spot in my stomach that makes me feel the need to eat again.  I'm not sure what that means.  I probably just need more protein or some such thing.

Sometimes I wish certain people read this blog, just so I feel like they're taking an interest in me.  But at the same time I hope they don't so that way I can talk about them. :P  But I change names to protect the innocent, so I guess I'd rather they read it.  But he won't I'm sure.

I'm kinda screwing myself over academically right now.  Not because I'm being lazy or won't do the work, but because no matter how hard I try I can't remember to do the things I need to do.  They just don't enter my brain when I need them to!

Each of the preceding paragraphs has three lines (at least in this text box)
Except this one.  Off to work I go.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Listening - The Used

1.Put your iPod on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
The Taste of Ink - The Used

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Cosmopolitan - Nine Black Alps

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Shake It - Metro Station (lol)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Soul Meets Body - Death Cab for Cutie

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Wait Till I Get There - Eric Durrance

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Potterwatch - Catchlove (So a nerd I guess haha.  Accurate.)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Six (Interlude) - The Hush Sound

WHAT IS 2+2?
Red Rooftops - Allie Smith

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
That Is Why - Say Anything

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
In Defense Of The Genre - Say Anything

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Any Way You Want It - Row-Loff Productions (Drumline thing we played.  SO CORRECT!)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Young Sirius Black's Flying Motorcycle - The Reamus Lupins

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
This Is Halloween - Marilyn Manson

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
The Word You Wield - Say Anything

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Transparent - Moaning Myrtles

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
The List - Hank Green (HAha!)(I'm going to sit and listen to this one!)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year - Fall Out Boy

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Died A Jew - Say Anything (UH 0.o)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Sally's Song - Amy Lee

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Vela, Together We Await The Storm - The Human Abstract

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Up Here Looking Down - Laura [Laura21] (From the paper Towns Soundtrack)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Paper Planes - MIA

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
The King of Broadway - Mel Brooks

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Into My Web - The used

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Easy To Say- Jessica-Snow Wilson & Girls

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Devil Beside You - The Used

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Basically The Man, Pt. 2 (Neville's Song) - The Butterbeer Experience (This is more of what Neville would change..)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Get Out Alive - Three Days Grace

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Listening - The Used

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Hamlet

"is one melancholy S.O.B."

Yeah, I should go do that...
Surprise In Class Essays for the LOSE.
To Sparknotes!  I don't even care if she doesn't want us to use them, I need them.
I'm still procrastinating.
GO.
NOW.
BYE.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Apparently everyone is doing this

and it started with John Green, soooooo...  :)
"Geez Lindsey, If John Green jumped off a-- "
YES.


1. What's your name?
Lindsey

2. What is your favorite thing to wear?
Converse, jeans, and t-shirts.  Preferably Threadless, which should arrive in the mail soon.

3. Last thing you ate?
*is currently nomming Pirates Booty
(lol)

4. One place you will NEVER eat at?
um.  I'll probably end up never eating at a lot of places.

5. I say Shotgun, you say:
I get carsick, sorry.

6. Last person you hugged?
John Green is the last person I care to remember having hugged.

7. Does anyone you know wanna date you?
One can only hope.

8. Would you date anyone you met online?
I If I could meet them often irl.

9. Name something you like physically about yourself:
eyes, especially when lined with dark brown eyeliner

10. The last place you went out to dinner to?
ummm sort of macdonalds, when I saw Twilight, if that counted as dinner...

11. Who is your best friend?
I have a couple, all for different reasons

12. What time of the day is it?
6:30, exactly

13. Who/What made you angry today?
my ********** chemistry teacher
and 7th graders

14. Baseball or Football?
Baseball's less brutal I guess.

15. Ever gone skinny dipping?
(Haha by accident, Liam?)  Um, in Japan, they have these bath houses with pool things.  I was alone, but I could have not been, potentially.

16. Favorite type of Food?
Pesto pizza

17. Favorite holiday:
Christmas

18. Do you download music:
yes...I believe this is common. :P

19. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
clean and argyle please!

20. Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
cliche.

21. Would you date the person that posted this?
You mean the person I stole this from?  Yes!  If only he weren't Scottish and taken.

22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
yep, both

23. Do you love anyone?
yes, in a couple different ways

24. Are colored contact lenses sexy?
i'd have to say no.

25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
Define bungee jumped...

26. Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
I almost had the chance to once.  I probably wouldn't though.

27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
Well, he was much more than 10 years older and very drunk.

28. How many pets do you have?
2 dogs, Bruce and Cooper

29. Have you met a real redneck?
probably

30. How is the weather right now?
chilly, for California

31. What are you listening to right now?
One moment while I bring up iTunes... Sally's Song by Amy Lee off the Nightmare Revisited album.

32. What is your current favorite song?
Propane Nightmares by Pendulum

33. What was the last movie you watched?
Twilight

34. Do you wear contacts?
glasses

35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
My college councilors house.

36. What are you afraid of?
College.  And large bodies of water.

37. How many piercings have you had?
none, but I have some fake ones that I wear sometimes

38. What piercings do you want?
I'll probably get my ears pierced eventually.

39. What's one thing you've learned this year?
You have to do stuff to get stuff done, if that makes sense.

40. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Passion tea lemonade!

41. What Magazines are you reading?
none really, but I like taking pages from AP to put on my wall.

42. Have you ever fired a gun:
A rifle at camp, something I'm sure I'll be doing again against my will, considering my mom just BOUGHT ONE.

43. Are you missing someone?
More than they'll ever know.

44. Favourite TV show?
Doctor Who.  Then House.

45. Do you have an obession with WoW?
Never played.  Would like to try it, but it costs money.

46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
(lol at Liam's answer)  Yep

47. What celeb do you look like?
(Haha poor LIam)  Hilary Duff

48. Who would you like to see right now?
Marc.  And John Green

49. Favorite movie of all time?
mmm Iron Man I suppose

50. Do you find yourself loved?
sure

51. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't suppose to?
I was a kid once, yes.

52. Favorite smell?
The right cologne on the right guy.

53. Butter, plain, or salted popcorn?
Salt, then butter.  Shake.  A pinch more salt.

54. What's something that really bugs you?
My ********* chemistry teacher

55. Do you like Michael Jackson?
not particularly

56. Taco Bell or Burger King?
BK of course.

57. What's your favorite perfume?
I don't wear perfume much.  When I want to smell pretty, I apply Miso Pretty lotion liberally.

58. Favorite baseball team?
do not care.  Angels is the only I've seen.

59. Ever call a 1-900 phone number?
I've never heard of such a thing

60. What's the longest time you've gone without sleep?
36 hours

61. Last time you went bowling?
Ahhh I haven't bowled in forever!  I think the last time was my birthday party.

62. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
in class.

63. Who was your last phone call?
My mom.  How uninteresting

64. Last time you were at work?
As opposed to at play?
My las job ended last December.

65. What's the closest orange object to you?
A signed photo of Haley Williams.